t-minus 1

maybe it is because i've only had 1 big meal in the last few days, or because i can't find the right stuff sack for my clothes. or because i don't know which shirts to take, or maybe because i haven't slept for a week, or kinda b/c i thought for a while that i had lost my wallet. maybe it is b/c i have a huge list of things to do and it won't get smaller. but i'm really feeling a little shaky and worried. i need to get some food in me i bet.

(5 minutes later)

black eyed peas are cooling to my left. i know i'll feel better after i eat those. i fuckin love black eyed peas.
i still feel a little overwhlemed. before last night i didn't think that the final departure date was anytime "soon". last night it felt pretty close. months and months of hoping and dreaming and wondering. not to mention the waiting. the terrible terrible waiting. all leads up to tomorrow.

maybe i'll just read this. again.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/New_Zealand