t-minus 1b

i just packed my pack for the final time. it was a lot harder than i thought. it was a total 'mind out of body" experience. before i knew it i was unpacking it again, only to have all the carefully considered contents back in the bag in a new and better order. an order that has eluded me for months. i guess it really took a certain attitude to pack it correctly. every time i've packed this bag has been a joke up until now.

now its so real. this is my last night of close contact with my friends and loved ones.

i'm looking at it right now. i don't want to pick it up. it will be too heavy and i will probably cry.
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i have to. i'm gonna put on my airport clothes and put on my bag. let's see how this goes*.

*i was going to post a picture. but i think this one will be just for me. maybe i'll share it with you in a year.